Honestly, I need to be broken.

Brokenness. Typically when you hear the word, you think of a negative emotion. Broken-hearted, broken family, broken relationships. But spiritually, brokenness is a good thing. If you grew up in church, as I have, you have probably heard the song "Holiness, holiness, is what I long for. Holiness is what I need. Holiness, holiness, is what You want from me." That first verse is very typical of praise songs. But the last verse, I think, is the most important (and atypical). "Brokenness, brokenness, is what I long for. Brokenness is what I need. Brokenness, brokenness, is what You want from me." I never really understood that verse until recently.

About a month ago at camp, Carl Cartee led us in worship with a song called "Honestly." The chorus is this: "Honestly, I need to be broken. Honestly I need to fall down. So go ahead and shake my foundation, cause honestly I'm figuring out that of all that I have, all that I need is You, honestly." Brokenness is crucial to our spiritual walks because without it, we probably wouldn't trust in God. If we weren't broken, we would fail to see our need for the grace, love, and mercy that can only be found in Christ.

Last night, at church, we sang "Honestly" and I was overcome with emotion. God has been working overtime on my heart, but I am still learning to "let go, and let God." I am still learning that God really is all I could ever need and more. I know that when I finally realize and understand that, and fully surrender everything over to Him, I will have more joy and peace than I can take! But for now, I pray that God would continue to break me, because honestly, brokenness is nearly the only thing that keeps my faith in Christ alone.